Thursday, January 12, 2012

Everything In It's Right Place

Everything is done.  Finally, I checked off the last thing on my to-do list for before Jude and it feels good.  This week has been really productive.  I’ve gotten my oil changed, my flu shot and my whooping cough vaccine, I finished the rest of the background check paper work type stuff that we needed for the adoption, I cleaned out what is basically our garage, went on a massive grocery shopping trip to try to stock up the house as much as possible, and have managed (with S’s help) to keep the house pretty clean.  Oh and the hospital bag is packed, the nursery is done, the clothes are washed, and everything is set on that front as well. Now there really isn’t much of anything left for us to do other than wait for the little dude to make his appearance.  It sort of feels like now that we are as totally prepared as any two people could be for a newborn that it will jinks us.  I almost wanted to not get some of these things done in hopes that it would encourage the universe to “punish” us by having Jude be a bit early.  Isn’t that silly reasoning?  I am glad that it is all done though and there is nothing left to worry over.

Can you believe that there are only 10 more days till Jude’s due date?  I can’t believe it.  Even 9 months later, with 6 ultrasounds, 3 baby showers, and a million kicks and nudges, I still can’t quite wrap my head around the fact that we are having a baby.  And it’s so intense, this love that I have for him already and this longing I have to hold him in my arms.  I never imagined that I could feel so strongly for someone I haven’t really met yet.  But then of course I do feel like I’ve met him and that I know him.  He seems to already have great timing, comically speaking.  S and I will be talking about him or about something else and he always seems to kick at the right time.  It feels like he is voicing his agreement or disagreement each time and I love it.  

Of course, now that I realize how close we are to the end of this pregnancy, I have been snapping pictures of S’s amazing belly left and right.  I want to make sure that I’ve accurately captured it because it hit me the other day how much I will miss it.  I love S being pregnant.  She is so beautiful with that big round belly and I love how tenderly she looks down at it and smiles.  I am truly in awe of the life she has created and feel so blessed to have been even a small part of the process.  And though I’m sure S is looking forward to some of the less than pleasant things that go along with pregnancy going away (like the numb arm and the hip pain), I know she is going to miss being pregnant too.  She said just the other day that it is going to be weird to not have him with her all of the time, knowing that he is safe and content.  

And because I love bump shots like I said, here is the newest one.  S looked so cute yesterday that before she could even get in the door after work I made her stop and let me take pictures of her in front of our house.  So cute.

Congrats by the way to all of the January mommas who have given birth recently!  I can’t wait to hear all of your stories!

1 comment:

  1. I'm so excited for you guys! Hope the next 10 days or so go quickly for you! (But at the same time, try to enjoy your last few days as a family of two --it'll likely be a while before the two of you are able to have time alone together.)