Of course, I was somehow able to stay strong and sure in front of S, but in reality I was out of my mind with worry. I went to the lobby and called S’s mom to let her know what was going on and then I called my mom and just broke down. I was so scared that both of my babies wouldn’t make it through this. Rationally I knew that they would be fine and no one was in distress, but in my heart, I was so afraid. It makes me feel teary right now just thinking of those moments. Luckily my mom knows me so well and calmed me down in a matter of minutes so I could go back to the room and be strong for S.
The C section itself was the most intense thing I’ve ever been a part of. They had S pretty drugged up but she wouldn’t let them give her everything that they wanted to because she didn’t want to be dopey or too out of it to be aware. So she did feel quite a bit of what they were doing. I held her hand and tried to distract her. I’ll leave the details of it to her to share (not sure if she will want to or not, but just in case). The doctors had a CD playing and it was really cool because Jude was born during one of our favorite songs, Coldplay’s Viva La Vida.
Everything since then has been great. I couldn’t love him more, and he is so strong and healthy. We are actually about to go home, they are letting us check out early because both S and Jude are doing so great. So we are packing up and this family is going home.
And of course, more baby photos!
Jude and his Uncle Brandon
Jude and Aunt Sandy
Jude and Uncle Duck
Jude and Aunt Lulu