I don’t know whats wrong with me today, but something is. I’ve been looking forward to today, the first day at home by myself after surgery. I feel great, I’m only taking some Tylenol at this point and physically can do what I want aside from pick up Jude. But I’m so sad and I don’t know why. I’ve been crying all morning for no good reason at all. Am I depressed? I know I have been depressed with all of this going on but now everything is better. It’s been five days now since surgery so surly it’s not from the anesthesia at this point (I had a weepy day or two after surgery which I think was from the anesthesia). I don’t know. I can do whatever I want and all I can manage to do so far is lay in bed and cry.
Speaking of crying, Jude has been out of control crying boy around here. Again, I don’t know what it is, as he is in a great mood for his sitter or anyone else watching him, but if we are at home and inside then he is crying and throwing a fit 90% of the time. It is exhausting and it really feels so personal, like he hates us. This weekend wasn’t too bad but then we also stayed as busy as possible and went outside and out and about as much as possible. Poor S is so tired as being post surgery I can’t keep up with him or pick him up yet. She needs a vacation from this crying family of hers!