Meltdown #1

I had my first meltdown last night.  I have been feeling moody, but no major meltdowns until last night.  I was changing clothes and feel like I am already showing!  I freaked out.  Liz was talking about taking pictures of my belly earlier in the evening.  My body is already changing.  I know I am not really showing, but I am bloated and my whole front torso is softer than usual.  I just started crying hysterically in frustration.  Liz on the other hand thinks it’s great.  I kept repeating that I look pregnant and she kept saying, well you are pregnant!  I should not look like it yet!  I have been eating healthy, but I have not been exercising.  I am hoping that the second trimester gives me my energy back and I can start walking or swimming again.  I have a luscious heated (not too hot) lap pool that I was swimming in after work for a while.  I bet once I really do start showing, it will feel really nice to feel weightless in the water.   I am not really upset about it today, but was dramatically upset about my changing body last night.  Liz pulled up message boards about all kinds of people on week 7 that feel like they are already showing or that their work clothes feel different.
On another note, I have felt slightly nauseous all day.  I have been feeling sick a little here and there, but today I have not felt that great all day.  I am so thankful for ginger ale:)  I am still exhausted but have the next 7 days off work!!!!!  My best friend is coming in from Oklahoma with her fiance.  I am so excited!!  Only day 1 of vacation and I am enjoying it.  I got up at 7 and then napped for a few hours in the afternoon.  It was very nice.  I have a drs. appointment tomorrow where I should be able to see the glimmer of the baby’s heartbeat.  So exciting!!  I will post pics tomorrow.
-S