Wednesday, December 30, 2015

First at Home Attempt

We did our first at home attempt today.  I really thought it'd be easier than it was, but all in all, we got it done.  I think the timing was bad though.  When we ordered our sperm I really thought it'd get here yesterday but I was just being dumb and not thinking. I feel that yesterday was the day to do it and that today was a bit too late but oh well we did it anyway.  We ordered online a bunch of speculum and needless syringes and instead cups.  So we first got some of the preseed in the syringe and then the sperm and then a tiny bit more preseed and then did my best to get it close to the cervix but I've never used a speculum before and I've never looked for a cervix before so it was all just a guess.  And our syringes didn't come with the little cathither thing so I don't feel like I got all of the sperm sample out of the vial, just had to pour it into a cup and suck it up like that.  Now we know we need that and that we need to order much earlier.  

I'm not sure what we will do next month. We have a friend who will possibly we a donor for us that we need to have a serious talk with sometime before S's next ovulation.  Or maybe we order two or three vials and do the at home thing with frozen sperm again.  We will see.  

Monday, December 28, 2015

A New Plan, Home ICI

So we are done with the fertility doctor.  This is for a number of reasons, mostly cost, but also we are tired of fighting with him.  Tired of his attitude when S doesn't want to have a full to bursting bladder during IUI, tired of being bullied about taking fertility drugs, tired of trying to get in to see him when you never know how long you'll have to wait combined with S being busy at work.  Just tired of it.  So for now we are moving onto at home ICI.  We had originally thought that S would ovulate while we were in Oklahoma for Christmas and that we'd do an ICI using my brother as a donor.  But in the end he decided he couldn't do it because his girlfriend wasn't cool with it and also because of S taking the progesterone her cycle was late and so she didn't ovulate while we were there.  So onto a new plan.

We were going to just skip this month, but....we decided to go for it, but sort of half way.  We only ordered one vial of ICI sperm, which due to our last minute decision making is getting here tomorrow.  Today was only day 12 I believe for S so we ordered some supplies off amazon but those don't get here till Wednesday.  And of course that all means that S got her positive OPK today.  We are going to do our one insemination tomorrow afternoon when the vial gets here.  We have some preseed lube stuff which I've read good reviews of, a new oral medicine syringe, and some instead cups.  Hopefully we can make this stuff work because it's all I could come up with and waiting till Wednesday seems too late.  Fingers crossed for this first home attempt and that we don't totally screw it up!

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Merry Everything!

We are all snuggled down at my moms house, ready for Santa to come.  Hope you all are having a happy holiday!

Saturday, December 12, 2015

Still no

I think I am psyching myself out. I have all the pregnancy signs, but am currently on progesterone and my thyroid is a bit on the high side of normal. Hormones are funny and intense. I am nauseaus, boobs are larger and hurting a little, I am emotional and a little dingy. If u ask me, I am pregnant, but all tests (including one this morning) say no. Sigh. I am just so ready to be going down that path. I know Liz is too, but it feels like we might end up a 1 kid family. I am just fortunate to have one great kid. I think we will inseminate at home for 6 months and then decide from there what we think we want to do. I am tired of arguing with the dr. About a full bladder and waiting around. I can just pop home and do it and go back to work if we have sperm shipped to the house. We have our blood draw Monday, so we will know 100% then. Fingers crossed, but not feeling very hopeful. -s